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This morning I had an epiphany. Do I really define myself by others’ thoughts and feelings or opinions? The answer is…sometimes. “I know better” I recite to myself, the usual rhetoric, or more specific, negative self-talk that can clog or often consume my thoughts.

 I have had several occurrences recently in which associates whom shall remain nameless as they do not know they are the subject of my blog today (smile) have managed to stay in the front recesses of my thoughts.

I am so excited to be teaching again, and yet, the thought actually scares me, I feel panic, anxiety, and who knows what else. Where does this come from? Listening to others, albeit well intentioned human beings, color my thoughts to somehow trick me into thinking that they are my own. I look inside my eyes and realize the child inside me thinks I’m freakin’ fabulous. So, alas, I will trot forward and feel the fear and do it anyway!

Comments

[Paris]

You know what Monica you are so amazing and I am so gratiful for you and love you and this blog is right on time, I beginning to think you are psychic because you know my thoughts (lol). My ego and well meaning others are always in my head messing with me and the more I apply positive affirmation the more the negative keeps nagging me, so anyway thanks and I needed this and this blog is brilliant and have a bless day

[~Substance~]

It's wonderful to see and know you are smiling. It is amazing how a little seed someone plants can become you own and then you realize that's not my idea that's someone else idea. We definitely have to be careful of those seeds being planted in our consciousness. I love the blogging your doing thanks for sharing. Love you ~Substance~

[Laura]

You ARE freakin' fabulous, my beautiful friend!! You are a wonderful and passionate teacher and your students love, love, love you!! Please do not let anyone's comments stifle what you are born to do. I do understand how you feel though since I have found myself doing the same lately. Just know that you have love and support from many many people whose lives you have touched in such a positive way.t

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