I'm Back...

This morning I had an epiphany. Do I really define myself by others’ thoughts and feelings or opinions? The answer is…sometimes. “I know better” I recite to myself, the usual rhetoric, or more specific, negative self-talk that can clog or often consume my thoughts.

 I have had several occurrences recently in which associates whom shall remain nameless as they do not know they are the subject of my blog today (smile) have managed to stay in the front recesses of my thoughts.

I am so excited to be teaching again, and yet, the thought actually scares me, I feel panic, anxiety, and who knows what else. Where does this come from? Listening to others, albeit well intentioned human beings, color my thoughts to somehow trick me into thinking that they are my own. I look inside my eyes and realize the child inside me thinks I’m freakin’ fabulous. So, alas, I will trot forward and feel the fear and do it anyway!